@RNKmac I truly know how you feel I to lost a baby it was back in 1993 it was my first child he was so precious the day I lost him I thought my world had ended I done all the blaming I blamed God I questioned why he would do this to me but I was wrong for that I later realized that and I got my faith straightened out and that has brought me through a lot without my faith and family most of all God I couldn't have survived losing my child and my father 2 of the most important men in my life I lost but I thank God for allowing me to become the mother to another awesome son 2 daughters and 1 granddaughter they are my world I'm so so sorry for your loss and you are correct their is so much evil in the world right now it is so good to meet some of the kindest people and here in the community I think you will live it because we have some of the most kind people who are so helpful and caring so I'm so happy to see you here ❤ and if you ever need help or need anything please feel free to tag me 😊